I am so sick of being sick!! I feel like a human guinea pig. I am tired of getting poked and prodded! I have to have another series of blood tests to check my levels. I have to go in and see the Cardiologist and then see the Neurologist to get an MRI and Cat-scan. I am usually not claustrophobic, but that machine makes me feel very claustrophobic! I can’t wait to get that one done with.
I have not been in as much pain lately which is a good thing. I continue to have fevers, and still am very weak. Being out in the sun with this heat makes me very weak. My lungs are still very weak due to my chronic pleurisy. My short term memory seems to get worse each day. It can be so embarrassing at times. Last week I went to see my Doctor. The receptionist asked what Pharmacy I use. I could not for the life of me remember. I knew where it was, I could see it, but I could not remember what it was called. She asked me a few other things and must have thought I was crazy because I seemed so confused and had to try to think about my answers. When I finally got into my room I asked the Nurse what other Pharmacies there are besides Walgreen's. Well it turned out to be CVS. How could I not remember?
I am so thankful to have my kids around to help me remember things. I am always asking them, “Did I already do this?” Or they help me remember what something is called. Like the time I could not even remember my Aunts name! I had to ask the kids, “What is Aunt _________ Name?” That made me so sad.
The kids think it is really funny when I start to try and say something and get all the words mixed up or I say things backwards, and then I begin to stutter. I wish I thought it was as funny as they do. I have lost some of my long term memory too. It is very odd when I all the sudden remember something that I had forgotten. It is like déjà vu. I am like wow! I didn’t even know I had forgotten that. I have to ask my friends all of the time, “Did I already tell you this, or did we talk about this before?” It is so crazy!!!
Oh well, just another day of feeling LUPIE with Lupus.
August 18, 2010
My little boy is becoming a man. I just cannot believe that Noah will be THIRTEEN next month. Noah has matured so much this past summer. He has become so much more responsible and helpful. He has also sported a bit of a mustache, grown out his hair like Justin Bieber, his feet are two sizes bigger, and he is now 5ft 1in tall. Where has my baby gone?????? Oh well, I knew it would happen sooner or later, and just like everyone says, "overnight!" Here is a picture of him when he was just a little baby. He is still just as sweet and adorable as he was then!!!! Luv you Noah!!!! Oh yeah, he is beyond girl crazy!!! I am going to have to lock him up soon!!!
August 14, 2010
"Sometimes strength is measured by how well you can hold on...but there are times when strength is measured by letting go!"
A friend of mine posted this on her Face book page today. This past week I had to make some really hard choices and let go of things I didn't want to. It definitely took all the strength in me to let go. I know that sometime in the future I will look back on my decisions and know that it was the best thing for me to do.
August 13, 2010
August 12, 2010
Look at how precious these babies are!!! They are my friend Becky's twins. They were born June 6th. Ashley is in love with Sophie!!! We have gone over several times to help out. Ashley thinks Sophie is her real life doll, she feeds her, holds her, rocks her, etc...... When Ashley is around nobody gets to hold Sophie. I am content holding Asher. He is so sweet!!! Noah loves the babies too. He talks to them like they can really understand him. It is too funny!! I took these photos of them when they were 7wks old.